From elementary school on, I never fit in with the boys. I lived every day in a fantasy world of codependent fixation on other males. Hopelessness and self-hatred were my normal. I had no sexual desires for females; only for males. And by age 17, I was suicidal from the inner turmoil. Bouts of porn and compulsive masturbation were my medication of choice, and I was powerless to resist them. After years of failed attempts at freedom, I discovered some kingdom realities and encountered God in areas & ways that transformed me. Jesus died for our sexual wholeness and freedom. This is the story of how I got free.